Due to my recent postings about my meditation experience, I started getting questions from beginners, experienced and just on the part of interested bystanders. The questions are quite predictable, as this spiritual practice leaves us one-on-one with our minds with the ensuing worries and anxieties.))))
I am not a master and far from an experienced practitioner, as I said earlier I have been practicing this spiritual practice on a continuous 
I have been practicing this spiritual practice continuously for about 4 years and my path is not one of enlightenment and blissful harmony in the practice.
It’s not a show on TV or a lottery where you get all the perks in one preset. So let’s once again come down to earth and consider meditation more soberly. Here I am sharing only my understanding at the moment, and I make no claim at all to the the truth the ultimate truth.
First Experiences
When I first began practicing meditation I was a little horrified to find myself in a nonstop flow of thoughts, unpleasant feelings in my body and all sorts of mood swings, which were illogical and generally useless. I felt much more restless and less balanced than before the meditation experience.
It seemed like my mind was becoming more crazy than harmonious. I know now that my mind wasn’t getting any worse at all. What was happening to me and to everyone along the way was that you and I were becoming more aware of the activity that was going on before all the time without your attention. After a while I began to notice that the intensity of my mind and emotional reactions to thoughts began to slow down and it became possible for me to experience a clearer state of consciousness.
Unfortunately, our psyche, having absorbed all sorts of wow effects through television, mass media, and other sources of influence, is structured so that we are not ready to invest, we want the divine experience here and now. And accordingly, after 5 restless minutes, we become disillusioned with meditation. I hear from many people a similar phrase: “I sit and nothing happens. What should be happening? What exactly are you expecting to happen?
This inner work and often just sitting and meditating (which you call sitting and nothing happens) is a very deep work that you can understand and feel only with time. Also, most believe that it’s not them but the practice that needs to change. This consumer approach, so to speak, extends here as well) But the reality shows that this practice is really not for everyone, not everyone is ready to conquer their laziness, ego, busyness and other endless reasons. That’s why many give up at the first stages. But without work you can’t catch a fish out of the pond.
The fruit of patience
I am now able to have amazing experiences outside of my mind, even if only for a few minutes or sometimes seconds. Everything around me is changing and moving: time people the sounds of voices… and my ability to remain deeply still and unwavering is growing.
It is an amazing practice that allows me to see and recognize the workings of my mind, my reactions, my hidden abilities. This practice allows me to cultivate sincerity, happiness, confidence.
I don’t feel confused about life anymore. I don’t feel lonely and fear of impermanence. And the further I meditate, the more intense is the process of my spiritual realization. I am now beginning to harvest the fruit of my patience and self-discipline in meditation. I wish you a rich harvest in this practice and patience as well!)
Love Maria Shakti.
